lizzilou

 I'm engaged!!!!!

Wow, I've grown up a lot since I first started writing on this.
Most entries are almost unbearably embarassing to read.
I started to delete them and I got through quite a few but then I realized that I may as well keep them. They're actually quite funny, when I pretend I wasn't the one writing them.
The only ones I really wanted to get rid of were the angry rants I wrote about Brandon. They weren't worth keeping because they're all silly things from the past that aren't worth revisiting or reliving. Reading them only makes me upset over things that don't matter and really didn't matter then.
Everything else is either funny or confusing. Plus I don't have the time or effort to delete them all. I also don't think I care.


I'm ready to start my last semester, I think.
I did get straight A's last semester which was pretty exciting.  I can't think of anything in my life that I would change or I wish I could make different or somehow better. I just think I'm ready to finish up this last semester and get on with my life.
Which includes going back in a year for two more years! But I'll deal with that when it comes.

So far all but one of my classes seem wonderful, for various reasons.
History: uber enthused teacher and very nice, New York Times/CNN interested, mature, sophmore/junior guy who's name completely slipped my mind.
Human Growth and Development: Steffi, and the incredibly sweet old lady who's teaching it
Sociology: Beautifully insane old man who is right on the edge of dementia, and the awesomely cool "drug-fiend" Matt,
Then there is Anatomy/Phisiology.. that class really could go either way. I don't have much hope for the teacher, he is a known asshole. Maybe he'll be better as a teacher than a lab instructor?
Stephie is in every single one of my classes which is terrific b/c we get to suffer thru it all together! (huZZah)
Today I spent three hours at lunch with Steffi. We spent the whole time talking about everything. It was terrific! Now everyone is encouraged to call my cell b/c of the wonderful voicemail recording she put on it!
Off for a run!

So tomorrow I have my last final exam!
I have never been more thrilled.
This semester has really flown by. I can hardly believe it's already over. Just came home from watching the OC and Whatever it Takes in Stef's room. Twas tons of fun.
This week has been insane.
Monday I had my theology exam which I suppose I did all right on.. basically your nice relaxing boring day. I also got to play *Santa Claus* and did the whole present exchange. Then hung out in the lounge with Stef and Chris and talked.
Tuesday was crazy. I got to sleep in and relax. Got a phone call from the Marine again. Went to a party, then got a call from Angie en route to "Canadia" and got to spend some time with her at GMU... got in a bit late.. or early..
Met some of her friends including this guy named Joe that she has quite a peculiar relationship with..
Wednesday I had my final for honors that was a 12 page paper I had finished the night before.. as well as a presentation I had to give. The whole time I was talking I just wanted to run out of the room and cry. Then I had to say bye to Steffi. She's on her way back to Germany! After that I took my Chem final, had dinner with Chris, then went to GMU with Angie and got to meet up again with her Joe and his not too bad but semi computer obsessed friend. Then I finally laid eyes on the infamous Steve, much to my disappointment, did NOT get Angie to converse at him, ended up instead talking with an Army guy. Oh and found out that I had unknowingly given Mark mono on Halloween. Angie and several other of my friends find this to be absolutely hysterical. I feel bad though.
Tomorrow I take my final final and then get to go home and relax for 3 weeks. This first weekend is absolutely filled though. I'm trying to hang out with all my friends before I have to say goodbye! I will study... eventually!

Current Mood: nostalgic
Current Music: New Avril CD from Angie!

SoooooOOooo Steve can rot in bloody hell.
*brushes shoulder off*
hahahahahaa...
wonderful nite last nite.. I seriously heart all of my friends to the max.
Today was the invasion of the munchkins then the co-op overthrowing of the government.
It's all very complicated.
All on 3 hours of sleep.

Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: Smooth Operator

I have a few moments before I get to spend the rest of my evening running around like a lunatic..
But it'll be tons of fun. I have to give Chris his birthday present. I felt kind of bad.. not coming.. because I know he really wanted me to be there but I went home for a bit on Friday and Saturday b/c of my grandpa. But I got him somethin nice yesterday on my *shopping trip* I'm also kinda glad I didn't go.. I mean I got to go on a date with Steve and I had a really fun time. He's just SO untalkitive.. if he'd talk more that'd be great. Umm.. tonite I'm running from concert to candle-light dinner to caroling to mass.
Part of me wants to run into this new guy I met who went to Ireton but the other part really doesn't want to at all. He seemed really nice but quiet. I'd like to just be friends but...still.. I'm sick of quiet/shy guys.. I want someone who actually has something INTERESTING to say. Someone who has opinions and a sense of humor! Someone who actually wants to talk without me pushing him along at all. Do these guys even exist? Oh wow.. concert time!

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: The Cars

What is new in my life..
well today I:
went to Tysons mall.
Got a bunch of christmas presents.
taken on a date to Carlyle for dinner and then saw the Grudge.. (oh never again, under any circumstance, will I ever watch that movie. I forgot why I hated it so much and then.. yeah.. after the first ten minutes I remembered.. and he SAID I could see Bridget Jone's Diary too!)
I had an awesome time though..If he were to ask me out again I'd probably have to say yes.. well I'd defintely say yes..
Found out my grandpa is sick..ended up not going to New York with Chris because of that..
Oh but there will be other times!
Just got changed, going to clean up a bit then going to enjoy the rest of my Saturday nite!
later!

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: 80's CD!!!

So everything is perfect right?
I have straight A's.
I just found out that I have not only one but TWO parts in two different plays. They're both sometime near the end of January.
That'll be kinda stressful but a lot of fun.
Chris keeps asking me to go with him to New York for his birthday but I really don't think I'm up for it.. I'll see though.
All I have left to do is two small essays for Social Science and one twelve page paper for honors, and one small presentation for Chemistry.. then my three exams and I have a full month of bliss!
Skiing, hanging out with friends, who knows what else!
Today I hung out with Stef for a bit then went to Ballston with Alan and then got to hang out in my room listening to music and finishing my second to last lab! Tonite I'm goin to dinner with some friends and then watching the OC and a movie with a friend then probably droppin by Chris's to see Conan.. Tomorrow I'm hanging out with Steffie for a long time and then thinkin about maybe catching a movie with some friends.
Saturday I could be going to New York.. not so sure.. might have other plans..
Sunday I'm going to the concert and just relaxing!

Current Mood: happy
Current Music: I won't dance! (frank sinatra)

Ian just asked me out last nite.. I really do think that I attract the psychos..
Still peeved at Steve; but had a lovely conversation with him. I wish he would grow up.
I still have to talk to this Dr. Lady about going to London. I need to get out of this country for a bit.
Have to put the finishing touches on the Theology paper and start the 12 page final for Honors.
Two weeks of classes.. that's my mantra.
I really can't wait for break..
I need to get out and do stuff.
Still not sure what I'm doing this weekend but I need to stay away from here. Here is where Ian is. That's a bad thing.

Current Mood: amused
Current Music: Lose my Breath

Guys are so adorable!!
Mike is being all cutesy and stuff.. but being an incredible friend..really been there for me and been really nice to me... he has his list of *people who should die* on his profile:
Things i hate(and should die): Carrot Top, Wanda Sykes, Bill Cosby,Rosie O'Donald, Whoopi Goldberg,Paulie Shore, Reality Tv, undercover soap operas (North Shore, etc),REAL soap operas, Berg 2, "steve" (the ass across the hall),"Mark" (the blonde douche) food schedule here, Dr. Gerleman(girle-man),Scion cars, Wizard of Oz (idc if its a classic chicko!), Dr. Phil, Oprah, real soap operas, bad anime shows, judge shows (cuz their fake& gay), real news programs (cuz the reports are such douche bags),
--this list will be updated when i think of more...

I really think he should cut down on his anger..
it may be because he's short...

Then there's Steve who asked me out to dinner... I told him I was feeling better and then he told me he'd have to take me out to dinner to celebrate and then a few minutes later said he was soooo happy because he'd asked me on a date and I'd said yes!
Yay!!!!

Then of course there is the *body builder* Jose'.. now that's just amusing!
If he would stop hitting on me for just about one second that would be great..
Nice guy.. incredibly amusing.. but not my type!

Then again as Steph and I have concluded.. I don't know what my type IS..
oh well!

The OC was amusing as anything.. I think I'd watch it ONLY to see MIke's reaction..

And yes Steph.. I am WAY happier being single..

Current Mood: mischievous

So I just got back on campus.. yesterday I got to go to the docotors and then directly to the hospital!!!
Then I got to be a pin cushion..
I swear they really didn't need to take that much blood or give me any more.... anything..
it was hell.. god I hate needles
Oh well they ran enough tests though.. mono test and a whole ton of others.. but the mono one really stood out...
All I have to say is if that fucktard gave me mono...
grrrr...
uuugh... now to go back home... no classes for liz tomorrow!

Current Mood: groggy

Juliet and Romeo had it lucky.
They got the chance to expierence what they believed to be true, passionate, love; love where they were willing to give up everything, even their lives for one another.
They never had to go through the tradgedy of love growing old or fading away.
They never had to go through the heartache of unrequited love; the pain of still caring for another once their love has long gone. That is really the true travesty of love. What they had was pure ecstacy. There was no tradgedy in Romeo and Juliet, only a life worth envy. All they knew of love was what they felt for that brief, week-long, bliss. The loveless, apathetic, lives we live are the tradgedies.




Why am I ranting about this? Well...I just had to sit through an hour and fifteen minutes of this one girl running her mouth off about being *logical* and being in love. The two don't belong in the same sentence. She kept saying stuff like they should have thought it through, blah blah blah..
I was sitting there in class, wishing I were back in bed. Wanting really baly to speak up but couldn't because I still can hardly focus enough to string ten words together coherantly.
Especially after last night and what I said to Mike:

vpdj (12:16:36 AM): I don't take things too seriously, thank you. Right now I feel really shitty. I can hardly see straight, I feel like my head is going ot explode. Don't flatter yourself by thinking that I ask you to do things because I'm interested in you. If I date someone I'd like to be with someone who cares about me. Someone who wants to hang out with me and someone I can stand to be around

oh well.. we're cool now.. and I got a part in the play I auditioned for! It's mad exciting..
I'm really looking forward to it. More later!

Horray for dances and Zythromax and awesome people to go to dances with ;)
I'm feelings billions and billions of times better..
I went to the doctors and was told I have strep, a HORRIBLE sinus infection or... MONO
swweeeeetness right?
so now I'm completely drugged up on Zythro so I won't get killed with the NORMAL meds for sinus infections in case I have mono..
But hey I'm on Zythro and tylenol and coffee so life is awesome!
Dance tonite and I'm goin with Steph..
my "date" and I are not gonna go tonite.. we're goin clubbin another nite though.. tres coolness!!
BUT I'm gonna meet up with a couple other kids and it's gonna be unbelieveable!!!
I'm so excited.. I love dancing more than anything..
well I'm gonna go roam the halls and stuff.. no more computerizing and talking to the *macho men* hahaha...
Later!

Current Mood: mischievous
Current Music: METALLICA (and uber-cool disco and 80's) best combo!

I have straight A's!!!!!
Got a 98 on my last exam for CHem and an A- on my HUGE paper for honor's..
now all I have to do is do a presentation for theology on Augustine!!
Mike, Alan, and Jason are all laying off and Mike and I are getting along.. a lil bit.. again..
which is nice.. it's kinda funny how after I cursed him out and told him I never wanted to see him ever again and I hoped he died that he's now being all friendly and happy and stuff.. uuugh
he can die..
but hey! straight A's right??
My audition went well too and tomorrow I'm sleepin over at steph's! yay!

Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: Hillary Duff... hahahahaha thanks Stef!

Why does everything in life have to be so complicated?
I just want one thing in my life to be simple and perfect...

wow..
just had one of the worst days ever.. well.. second only to the bay bridge incident.
Anyway I got suspened from work for a month.
Honestly I think that's for the best though.. it makes it so I have a full month of no worring about work and a lot more freedom.
Except for the fact that I am car-less.. damn flat..
well yesterday in eco I was trying to cheer up this grumpy kid named Mickey (mike but who's counting)and I went to visit him at work like 9:30 or 10 and ended up sitting there and talking and joking with him until 1 a.m.
Luckily his job is sitting in front of the door and checking passes so I sat with him in the comfortable chair.
It was really nice. I felt SO much better afterward. He really cheered me up.
Now I have my first college exam!! Worth 1/3 of my grade!
..in chem!
ugh..
haha I'm gonna lie on the grass and study after lunch!

Current Mood: amused
Current Music: Leeean Back (not a good idea in a desk chair)

Exactly TWO days until I move in..
I'm so nervous but SO incredibly excited.. I've barely started packing..
the fact that I've been at the beach HAS been a slight factor though.
The beach was amazing! It was the best, and most needed, vacation I've ever had!
My entire back down to my knees is quite fried though.. but the 3 hours in the ocean was worth it ten times over! The waves were wonderful!
Ok well now to make another attempt at packing before surrenduring myself to the mall!
Later!

Had an absolutely incredible evening with Mark tonite..
Now I have to pack for the beach!
After that I have to pack for college..SEVEN DAYS!
Actually now it's six..
well off to pack!

Hmm..
Long time no write.
Broke it off officially with Matt.
Feel no different, if anything freer. This probably makes me a horrible person.
I wish I were a better person. I really do.

Hmm I've sworn off worrying.
I went to Florida and had a beautiful time. Just took some time and sorted out things in my mind.
I really can't wait until I get to finally be on my own.
I just crave someone to care about me ...but right now my parents are suffocating me and I want some space.
It seems I can't even decide who I am able to see.
Oh well. I made a deal. If I'm late then I can't ever see him again.
That would make me incredibly sad..

My life has become a wonderful paradox though.
I have my car and tons of freedom.. hell I even just randomly decided that going to Tysons was a good idea.. in RUSH hour to boot..
But then my parents are going into uber parental mode.. I think I should write a book..
After allowing myself to *settle* I swore that I'd swear off guys for a month. The second this happens I meet a really jawesome guy.. not veteoed officially as of yet thankyouverymuch...
GAH.. I think I am going to listen to Dean Martin and cleanse my mind of everything..
I just want to be happy.

Angie rocks my sock!

Went to her party last nite and had an awesome time. Met some of her friends from school.. (now I know who you're talking about) And had a blast.. yeah but not so much with the Matt right now.. but all her friends were incredibly sweet.
Met another one of Vince's exes.. hysterically funny girl. Decided we should form a support club or something..
Well off to another party tonite!

Current Mood: irate